Self pity-

Talking about this fking word, saying that I self pity? You are funking wrong! If I self pity, I would have jumped down a long time ago or even left that fking school so that I won't have to do any more fking tutorials and those shit question!!! Why? To me it's damn hard so I cannot freaking complete all the tutorial.. Asking me to finish the tutorials? Wah damn easy to come out of your fucking mouth! That line never fails to piss the shit out of me...

Seriously! You think wrecking your brains trying to find out how in earth the previous scientist and mathematicians answer this type of shit question is easy? Huh? You think after failing almost all the shit tests your will be able to bring yourself back and study everything again? We'll telling you, I cannot!!! But all this while I have been trying very hard to endure. When the number of test ahead of you keeps flashing... You have got fucking 3 more test dickhead! Why didn't you pass it the first time?

Shall I ask you back? Who the fuck was the one that fucking brought my freaking esteem down? That fucked up school! That fucked up Ian!

Lemme tell you! every weekend the two of you just have to go out and do things that won't matter even if it's left not completed, other than that? Watch tv! Who the fuck in that environment where everyone else is enjoying but you fucking cannot will be able to concentrate and stick your head into the books for so many hours? The fucking reason why I head to the lib every time and why in the evenings I cannot study! Think studying is easy? You will tell me that you know it's not... But sorry, you will never know cos you are not the one fking doing it! Things coming out of your mouth is just nothing! 

Exactly when I plan my studies for the next day, it's never complete! Ask me why? I fking dunno! I just can't for whatever reason and it's pissing me off but I cannot do anything...

And especially today, it's gona be even harder! You fucking ruined my mood to study when I actually am in the mood starting from the day before! I tired of this shit! I'm leaving for good... Please don't ask me back! Cos I'm not! Enough of pissing me off everytime by asking 'u finish ur work alr? ' stfu! Cis I haven't!!! And you think I want to not finish my work? Are you dumb? Who on earth will tell you that I don't want to finish my work cos it's easy!!! 

It's piss me off each time you asking about my work! Do I ask you how's work everyday? It pisses your off right? So? 

If people are willing to tell you they will if they don't stfu and stop asking! I'm irritated enough that I can't finish or because of a fucking question I get stuck and don't have the feel to do the rest anymore! Tell me why I have the feeling???? Why why why??????? I got no answer so just stfu to everything!! I hate everything!!!

I sometimes wana blame myself but I guess I'm blaming myself too frequent that I'm about to go berserk. Stop the nonchalant words blabber out of your mouth before my hate overtake all the love!