Hihi bloggie!

I havent been posting for a long time... :(

To me this year isn't any fruitful year...
Till now nothing i do seems right?
I am super upset with my results for Uni...
Not just that but my attitude and motivation and esteem, they have all gone down.
It feels like i have gone back to my secondary school life where i struggled very hard with myself and with studies while everyone around me are doing well. For whatever fucking reason, ive got no single mood to calm myself down, keep that fucking pen in my hand and keep my dead brain working.

TBH, my memory is very bad. Even with cheatsheets, i fail. What about when i have to go though the exams without it... Imma die i guess.
Nothings working out. I am nothing.. I need to find myself back if not imma die seriously...