Hopeful & NOT Hopeful

Well.. Start of the new semester in school..
Was having hopeful thoughts at the start, before my GPA came out
Shocked to see that it dropped by 0.03.
So its like 3.17/ 4.00

Was shocked not only because of the drop, but also, its the first time in my life getting so many As for the UTs.
Had 5As but the result still dropped.
My motivation obviously also followed the drop!

Now, 4 weeks into the semester, but there is only 1 A in my daily grade...
WOW! Continue dropping okay? Fuckery!
I seriously lost all my hopeful thoughts of doing well in school.
Plus with this class having all the clever clever ones
I think Imma DIE!
Cant Wait for someone to bring my hope back...
But i guess it will take very long to find that someone

This coming week is already the start of UT1
But i havent found my motivation

Hope to find it soon
God Bless Me...

ps. Dun be suprised to see cuts on my wrist