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Fuck this shit!
This post is gona get damn vulgar! It's a warning!Self pity- Talking about this fking word, saying that I self pity? You are funking wrong! If I self pity, I would have jumped down a long time ago or even left that fking school so that I won't have to do any more fking tutorials and those shit question!!! Why? To me it's damn hard so I cannot freaking complete all the tutorial.. Asking me to finish the tutorials? Wah damn easy to come out of your fucking mouth! That line never fails to piss the shit out of me... Seriously! You think wrecking your brains trying to find out how in earth the previous scientist and mathematicians answer this type of shit question is easy? Huh? You think after failing almost all the shit tests your will be able to bring yourself back and study everything again? We'll telling you, I cannot!!! But all this while I have been trying very hard to endure. When the number of test ahead of you keeps flashing... You have got fucking 3 more test dickhead! Why didn't you pass it the first time? Shall I ask you back? Who the fuck was the one that fucking brought my freaking esteem down? That fucked up school! That fucked up Ian! Lemme tell you! every weekend the two of you just have to go out and do things that won't matter even if it's left not completed, other than that? Watch tv! Who the fuck in that environment where everyone else is enjoying but you fucking cannot will be able to concentrate and stick your head into the books for so many hours? The fucking reason why I head to the lib every time and why in the evenings I cannot study! Think studying is easy? You will tell me that you know it's not... But sorry, you will never know cos you are not the one fking doing it! Things coming out of your mouth is just nothing! Exactly when I plan my studies for the next day, it's never complete! Ask me why? I fking dunno! I just can't for whatever reason and it's pissing me off but I cannot do anything... And especially today, it's gona be even harder! You fucking ruined my mood to study when I actually am in the mood starting from the day before! I tired of this shit! I'm leaving for good... Please don't ask me back! Cos I'm not! Enough of pissing me off everytime by asking 'u finish ur work alr? ' stfu! Cis I haven't!!! And you think I want to not finish my work? Are you dumb? Who on earth will tell you that I don't want to finish my work cos it's easy!!! It's piss me off each time you asking about my work! Do I ask you how's work everyday? It pisses your off right? So? If people are willing to tell you they will if they don't stfu and stop asking! I'm irritated enough that I can't finish or because of a fucking question I get stuck and don't have the feel to do the rest anymore! Tell me why I have the feeling???? Why why why??????? I got no answer so just stfu to everything!! I hate everything!!! I sometimes wana blame myself but I guess I'm blaming myself too frequent that I'm about to go berserk. Stop the nonchalant words blabber out of your mouth before my hate overtake all the love! Damn it! Its Life!
Haven't studying as hard as i should for quite sometime, In fact, all these while since i started my Uni life.Not knowing the reason why, im not in the mood to do anything that i am suppose to be doing, i think I have gotten used to the mentality that in Uni i don't do well and wont be able to. 
I know this is a bad thing, but i don't know why my brain doesn't gets brainwashed!
Prolly these bullshit has been said to me when it was the third day of school and it was a super strong stupid bleach!
Stupid Ian! Lecturers and whatever nonsense that they have said to me and my class about the high rate of failure and having to retake modules many times!
i also have the mentality that after the first test if i fail, during the second test i will do well cos i will have more time. But wts! Im always in the slagging mood, does that mean i actually have to go and work to get the feeling of studying back? Should I? Prolly i should find a part time job. Like working on sat and suns!
Im being a bitch to my wallet also, keep thinking of things to buy i need to know how to appreciate the things that i have seriously...
I kinda want this phase psyco me seriously! I have dreams and yupp, many are unrealistic. I have dreams of becoming an idol but, i've got nothing, no looks, no brains. Prolly after all these shit exams that i have, my self esteem are duper down. I wasn't who i am ever since in entered this fking Uni!
May someone bring my self esteem back please, give me back my study drive, attitude and determination!
XOXO tata! LilMY
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Im not fine at all!
Hihi bloggie!I havent been posting for a long time... :( To me this year isn't any fruitful year... Till now nothing i do seems right? I am super upset with my results for Uni... Not just that but my attitude and motivation and esteem, they have all gone down. It feels like i have gone back to my secondary school life where i struggled very hard with myself and with studies while everyone around me are doing well. For whatever fucking reason, ive got no single mood to calm myself down, keep that fucking pen in my hand and keep my dead brain working. TBH, my memory is very bad. Even with cheatsheets, i fail. What about when i have to go though the exams without it... Imma die i guess. Nothings working out. I am nothing.. I need to find myself back if not imma die seriously... Bahbah... Meiyi need to study cos exams' 2 days away...
Hello People...Have been trying to study hard these few days but still didn't and my exam for advance mathematics will be this saturday... OMG! How? Ottoke? I need to be more determined and keep trying to finish what i have and i should always stick to my plan. I am too fickle minded seriously!.. :( Is a bad thing when you need to study but you don't really know what is the actual way. Just reading the notes and remember the techniques blindly? Or must deeply understand? This is maths man! In the past i always just remember the techniques but i realised that for now, many of the maths you need to understand what it means to apply it properly.. DAMN! My brain isn't very good now leh.... HOW? I need time, but i am falling sick and not feeling well.. SHIT! My nose, my throat... DAMN it! I keep feeling sleepy when i am home but in the lib, i feel distracted and time flies very quickly. I do agree that going there is quite a chore, cos i have things that will distract me like going out to buy things or eating at mac in the morning.. Which i think is redundant! Haiix... Im not controlled enough.. So somehow, now my parents dun really always sit beside me and tell me.. AYE! DO work la... Last time when my mum stays in the lib with me, she really stays and sometimes stares at me which give me the YOU SHOULD DO WORK FEELING. But now, NO! She will not always be with me and just do all the things that she needs to do like going MBS and all... Stupid MBS why create the stupid spinning thing and win money event?Cause my mum not to be with me and took away my source of perseverance! Haiix! The sense of urgency is totally not inside me now.. Im a piece of shit man.The feeling of me in sec 4 is back... Feeling stupid.. Things i need to cover for Advance maths now.... Vector Space,Metric in Rn. Linear mapping, Eigenvalues, sequence and series, limits and continuity. Sorry but WTF zahrborr, You got alot of things to do man... May all the god and goddess bless me. Let me understand the maths easily and remember the techniques properly and make me have the perseverance to complete everything and write the things i dunno in my cheatsheet. Like those that are important! Thank you god. I shall go do work now... BYE! Green Rain Pour on Me Please...
This is the New OST of SHINee for 'The Queen's Classroom'Quite inspirational as its true that there are lots of support behind me but perhaps, i dun feel that i am trying hard enough to pay back in return to the people that supports me all the way... with the result... Though the result isn't out but i know i am not putting in the best effort and presenting the best results which i am capable of.. Imma try to change but i need the perseverance .. Studying at SIT TUM is tough but i need to be more motivated and believe in myself that i can overcome all the difficulties and not be complacent with the fact that i am already in a uni studying but to put in my best effort and get the best results. The Making of Green Rain MV ( The Queen's Classroom OST) Green Rain [ON] When I open my eyes to the alarm, it’s a new but same day Without any thoughts, I headed to where I always go [TM] But that place I haven’t been able to go to [JH] Too big and high that it’s unimaginable [JH/TM] I want to climb that wall and go further *[ALL] I’ll hide my trembling heart I just want to hold your hand tightly and run We become fresher within the pouring green rain I was always childish and immature But I grew because of the trust In your single gaze, one smile That was enough for me [JH] The stories the wind tells me that the world is even tougher But if it stays like this, I feel like it’ll be alright [ON] The questions overflowing in my head [KEY] I waited for someone to answer them [KEY/ON] But I’m the one who has to search for those answers *Repeat [MH] The road we’re taking is wrong or blocked [ON] What should we do when we stop? [JH] And the moment when we cross that road What expressions will we have on? *Repeat - See more at: http://forevershiningshinee.net/post/54076432512/trans-shinee-green-rain-lyrics-korean#sthash.10lshC5W.wIzufqJU.dpuf Breaking News Is OUT!
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